Dreams

Maybe I need to change my diet before I go to bed now. Lately I have had a slight bout of insomnia. While I'm tired as all get out, I lay in bed and just toss and turn for hours. It's a bit frustrating to say the least. I've changed my sheets, used candles, and put on some different music. Nothing puts me to sleep. What does seem to put me to sleep is talking, in some capacity, to my friend San Diego. She is a nice girl and her voice allows me to venture off the dream land. The issue is what happens when I arrive to dreamland.

The last two times, when i hear San Diego's voice before going to bed, I have had some sick sick dreams. It's starts with what seems like a movie scene and I'm playing what seems the villain role. Somehow, I'm a parent and my family's cat just had kittens. I'm holding a large box with the kittens in them, some asleep while others up looking at me with kitten eyes. Very adorable and heart warming you would think. Not me and my dark heart. My children and wife, who looks like my ex-fiancé( a royal bitch) have upset me about something. I don't want the cats and the responsibilities that come with them. I cant hear the dialogue that we are saying to each other, but it is highly animated and I'm not happy in the least bit. In a fit of rage, I fling the box of kittens into the fireplace. The mother cat jumps into the fire after her kittens. My children are in shock and crying while , I assume, my wife is staring at me in shock.

I always wake up after that. What bothers me the most is that it doesn't bother me at all. I cN see myself doing something that inhumane in real life. If anybody can figure out what my dream means, please tell me. I don't want to turn into a serial killer here. This is just the most recent dream I've been having. stay tuned, for i'll write about more if I have them and can remember.